and i hope i can keep what i'l say...

i'm going to revive you, one of these days.

dalawang dekada!

a rip-off from gerald's LJ:

Spent the rest of the week detoxifying. :) Great! hehehe. Haven't started studying fro physio or histology of the cardio vascular system. hehehe. Friday pa naman ang exam, OK LANG YAN GERALD. :]

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Yesternight was great! It's Maan's birthday today, but she has to go home early because it's Friday so we had our "birthday date" yesterday evening. Around 8pm, it poured hard in our area so we were about to cancel our gimik. Pero buti na lang, tumigil din yung ulan nung hinatid ko siya pauwi. I picked her up ng 9pm and went straight to Malate...

But hep hep hep! Hindi kami nagbarhop no..

We ate at this fine restaurant called Portico. Pareho lang nung owner ng Chatteu 1771 sa St. Francis Square sa Ortigas. Sarap ng food! I had pasta with smoked salmon while Maan had chicken breast with pasta. Hehehe. Medyo fine dining ang dating, pero ok lang...it was our own special detox night and we really do deserve some fine service for getting fine grades in our past exams. ;)

Then we headed for the main event of our date: A MASSAGE. :) hehehe. Never pa kasing nakakapagpamasahe si Maan si I thought why not let her try it. Pero as we walked along Remedios Circle, nakita naming may nagshoo-shooting pala. We found out na si Anne Curtis pala yun at si Luis Manzano shooting the new film entitled "Kalesa". And trully, may mga kalesa nga doon. From what I saw, ang plot ng story ay nagkakilala si Luis at Ann sa isang banggaan involving a kalesa at yung car ni Luis. Hehe...Gusto kong panoorin yun, para lang masabi ko na, oh yeah...nanjan ako habang shinu-shoot yung scene na yan! Hahaha..

Anyways, ayun...pumunta na kami sa Whitehouse Spa at doon nagpamasahe. Hehehe. Yeah...ang sarap...pwede ka nang makatulog right then and there. :] Funny thing is, habang minamasahe ako...naiimagine ko kung anong muscle ang nahihimas at kung anong nerve ang nag-iinervate doon. Hahahaha. Yak, kadiri, ang nerd. 8) Pero totoo, nakakatuwa nga talaga. :)

Pagkatapos namin sa Spa, smelling Jasmine-y and all, pumunta kaming Starbucks para magpalipas lang ng oras. We stayed there hanggang mga 1:30 at umuwi na rin kami ng mga 2am.

Masaya yung gabing yun...:D Hehehe. Masaya kasi wala kaming "looming" exam. Masaya kasi masaya yung mga ginawa namin. Masaya kasi kasama ko yung mahal ko...

Happy birthday baby!! 20 ka na! Mas matanda ka na sa akin! Bwehehehe...in 2 months, pantay na uli tayo..

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awww... :) thank you ulit ge for the wonderful night and the beautiful flowers hehehe. sa mga bumabasa nito, at hindi nakakaalam, NAPAKA-THOUGHTFUL NI GERALD! he's full of surprises hehe. he really made my day. *big big stupid cheesy smile*

the song of my life (right now)

i've always liked jewel...

Standing Still
Jewel

Cuttin' through the darkest night
In my two headlights
I'm trying to keep it clear
But I'm losing it here
To the twilight
There's a dead end to my left
There's a burning bush to my right
You aren't in sight
You aren't in sight

Do you want me
Like I want you?

Chorus
Or am I standing still?
Beneath the darkened sky
Or am I standing still?
With the scenery flying by
Or am I standing still?
Out of the corner of my eye
Was that you that passed me by?

Mothers on a stoop
Boys in souped-up coupes
On this hot summer night
Between fight and flight
Is the blind man's sight
And the choice that's right
I roll the window down
Feels like I'm gonna drown
In this strange town
I feel broken down
I feel broken down

Do you need me
Like I need you?

Chorus

Sweet sorrow is the call tomorrow
Sweet sorrow is the call tomorrow

Do you love me
Like I love you?

Chorus

Oh, you're passing me by
Passing me by
Do you need me like I need you to?
Do you want me like I want you?
Or are you passing me by?
Or am I standing still?

i'm hoping up to the HEAVENS that it's really okay, will be okay...

and

i've realized that no amount of cadaver dissection, scientific explanations and all the dehumanizing glory that comes with med school can desensitize and numb me.

i still feel.

uniform blues

nagsimula na kaming mag uniform last week. ooooh yes. ang pinakahihintay-hintay kong uniform ng dalawang taon sa wakas ay maisusuot ko na!!

but NO.

nung isinukat ko ang aking blouse ay isang mukhang BALYENANG NAKAPUTI ang aking nakita sa salamin.

paano ba naman kasi, tinanggal yung tacks ng blouse ko. para sa mga hindi nakakaalam, yung tacks ay mga tahi sa blouse na nagbibigay ng kaseksihan at korte na katawan.

at ang aking pants!!!!! mayguhlay!!! mukhang pyjamas. at eto pa, mas masikip pa ang mga pyjamas ko kaysa sa aking white pants.

eh di isinauli ko LAHAT ng aking uniform sa aking pinagpatahian para i-alter. after all, i (actually my parents) wouldn't just shell out P3500 for something i wouldn't dare call a uniform.

so antay antay ako ng 1 week habang inaalter ang uniforms ko...

after 1 week... TADAAAAAA!!

maluwag pa rin. both blouse and pants. RAWRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!

at ang aking blouse, yung buttons ay malapit na sa nipples ko. RAAAAAAAAAAAAAWWWWWWWRRRRR! yung pants, kelangan ko pang lagyan ng clip dahil kung hindi ay mahuhubad sya sa akin.

pero kailangang pagtiisan required na kasi kaming mag-uniform ng linggong yun.

hmmm... iniisip nyo siguro ang arte ko no? well, YOU'RE RIGHT! maselan talaga ako sa mga damit. yung simpleng pampasok ko sa araw-araw nung naka-civilian pa kami takes a lot of planning. isipin nyo na lang, 5 taon kong isusuot yung uniform na yun! hindi ko talaga matatake kung pangit syaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!! waaaaaaaaaaaahhhh!!! two years kung inantay antay tapos biglang PANGET PANGET PANGET!!

ohhhhhhmmmm. i'm calming down now.

after a SERIES OF ALTERATIONS (ummm, like 5 siguro) my pants are okay. pero sa mga blouses wala na talagang magagawa.

buti na lang naawa sa akin ang nanay ko. NAGPATAHI NA AKO NG BAGONG UNIFORMS. pero syempre, hindi na sa dati kong pinagpatahian dahil sobrang nadala na ako sa kanila. nakakainit talaga ng ulo.

LESSON LEARNED: huwag magpapatahi kung saan marami nang nagpapatahi.

PS. i've got the sniffles. sana hindi maging full-blown ubo at sipon!!! big exam on anatomy and physiology of muscles and bones on friday. AND cadaver dissections also this week. wag nyo na akong lapitan kung makikita nyo ko. the stench of death. i heard it clings on your clothes... skin... nails... and hair... but i can't say that i'm not excited!!

so yun, ta-ta for now! next entry would probably be about my first patient, aka mr/ms cadaver.

im alive!!!

promis, soo-wer, i'll blog when my new phone line gets installed. i moved to this new apartment kasi eh so no internet muna unless i go wi-fi at 2nd flr calderon hall (main building of UPCM). kaya lang hirap bitbitin everyday ng laptop!! and most of the time after day-long lectures all i want to do is go home and rest.

yeah. 8-5 classes are draining. especially if there's just so much information overload EVERY FRIGGIN TIME.

we had our first exam last tuesday. que horor! enough said.



ang hirap ng pinasok ko.

just an update

sorry, blog. although a lot has been happening to me in the past few weeks, i just don't feel like sharing... better keep all those emotions to myself. for now.

wicked!!

syet. sobrang laugh trip nito promise. maybe you need a fast internet connection but wadaheck! go see it.

http://pinoystyle.net/flash/sbcpackers.html

natawa ka ba? :D if you appreciated it COMMENT! hahaha. and spread the laughter . pinoy comedy!

usapang med (at future) ulit

*** parang kasasabi ko lang kagabi na wala akong masabi. hehehehe. salamat kay peter at nagkaron ako ng idea!

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may nag-email kasing kaklase ko. si peter nga. at nagreact siya tungkol don sa isang balita kagabi sa tv patrol. may isang doktor na naisipang mag nursing. actually, lumang balita na yung pagkuha ng nursing ng mga doktor. eto ang bago: intarmed yung nasabing doktor na yon!

hindi ko masyadong napanood yung balita na yon. nag-iinternet na ako nun actually ng biglang tawagin ako ng mommy ko. dahil nga sa balita na yun. dahil intarmed sya. at baka kakilala ko daw. well, hindi ko sya kakilala.

para sa akin, may dalawang klaseng doktor: yung gustong tumulong at gustong yumaman. sabi nga ng isang doktor na teacher namin (hindi ko na maalala kung sino), hindi ka yayaman sa pagdodoktor. pero, hindi ka rin naman magugutom. sa dami ba naman ng mga nagkakasakit at uri ng sakit ngayon, napakalaki ng "market" ng mga doktor. yung mga mayayaman daw na doktor, either mayaman na sila sa simula o kaya ay sinuwerte talaga (most probably binigyan ng blessings ni God dahil sila ay tumutulong. di ba?).

balik tayo dun sa balita. sa akin, kanya kanya lang yan. hindi siguro siya nakontento sa kung anong meron siya ngayon. kaya ayun, nag-nursing. mahirap talagang isipin ang nobility, patriotism, at kung anu-ano pang selflessness kung ang pag-uusapan na ang survival. lalo na kapag may sarili ka ng pamilya. mabuti sana kung mapapangalagaan ng gobyerno ang sarili mo at ang pamilya mo. pero noooo. napakahirap na bansa natin. may pag-asa pa kayang umunald ang pilipinas???

ang hindi ko lang maintindihan sa doktor na yun ay kung bakit siya lantarang lumabas sa tv. hindi ba nakakahiya yon sa college of medicine? at sa sarili na rin niya! hindi kaya isipin ng mga tao na "hindi siguro magaling itong doktor na ito kaya nag-nursing na lang..."?

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dumaan din ako sa phase na naisip ko na hindi talaga ko aalis sa pilipinas at dito ako magppractice. sa sobrang go go go alma ata! ba naman ni dr. cordero nung fch namin last sem! hehehe. pero mukhang magbabago ang isip ko. naeenganyo akong sa ibang bansa mag-residency eh. oo, mas malaki ang kita don. pero iniisip ko din na baka mas marami din akong matutunan. haaaay ewan. ang hirap talagang tumira sa third world na country. pero mahal ko pa rin ang pilipinas. :) sa bagay, 5 taon pa naman bago ako magdecide.

dalawang bagay lang ang sigurado ko:
1. mag-aaral ako ng mabuti
2. ayoko talagang mag-nursing. i have nothing against nurses, or nursing. sa katunayan nga, halos lahat ng mga pinsan kong college eh nursing ang course. it's a matter of personal decision and conviction. dahil ako, ayoko ng inuutos-utusan.

snippets:
- aba, magjujudge ako ng beauty contest dito sa subdivision namin! wahahahaha! bukas yata yon.
- ang saya ng barakada overnight namin nung monday. nag magic-sing kami. medyo 6 na oras lang naman kaming nanganta! napaos ako. hahahaha. nakatatlong 100 naman ako. :D pagtapos manganta, nagchikahan lang kami hanggang 6 am!
- napanood ko na rin yung starwars episode III: revenge of the sith. hmmm... mas maganda pa yung mga naunang starwars. pano ba naman kasi, na-obscure na nung gazillion action scenes yung story. hanga naman ako sa starwars. parang na-bridge nya kasi yung generation gap! yung mga episodes 4-6 mommies and daddies natin nakakarelate tuloy sa episodes 1-3 babies (that's us!)
- pero gusto ko talaga ng light saber eh. ang astig kasi nung tunog nya pag ano bang tawag don, ino-on? hahaha!
- at gusto ko rin ng master yoda na stuffed toy. yeah i know, he doesn't exactly fall in the kyut category but there's this certain softness in his face that makes me just want to hug him! yeah, i'm really weird-o like that. :p
- sana si bo na lang nanalo. pero katulad nga ng sabi ni gerald, bo can make it on his own, without the AI crown.

i guess next update will be when i'm back in manila. that is, kung hindi pa putol yung bayantel ko. 2 months ding hindi ako nakabalik ng dorm!

nothingness

wala akong ma-blog ngayon. kung kelan naman busy ang week ko at nakakalabas ako ng bahay wala akong masabi. tamad na naman ako. hehehe. ano nga bang ginawa ko ngayong mga nakalipas na araw? marami. haaaay. tinatamad talaga ako, sorry. nagpaparamdam lang akong buhay pa ako. :D

may gusto lang akong sabihin...

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY HONEY!

salamat sa isang taong pagmamahal and a whole lot more. :)

kung anu-ano lang na dulot ng ka-boringan

-edit edit-
pagpasensyahan nyo na. kahit anong enter ang gawin ko, magkakadikit pa rin yung mga paragraphs ko. kung hindi na ganon, i might have found a solution. tulong, anyone? salamat. nakaka-inis kasi.

sayang talaga si vonzell! waaah. dahil sa kanya, na-pinpoint ko na foinally kung anong genre ang gusto ko: soul. feeling ko naman napaka-appropriate nya para sa akin. puro emotions, passion, girl power, ganon! artists on my current playlist: dionne warwick, whitney houston, vonzell solomon, aretha franklin, carly simon, jewel (ooops, may nakalusot na isa hehehe).

napakaganda talaga ng song na that's what friends are for. i know it's a gasgas song, pero yung lyrics talaga nya placed all that i feel into words. naks. ganda ganda. mai-post nga.

That's What Friends Are For
Elton John, performed with Dionne Warwick, Gladys Knight and Stevie Wonder

Written by BacharachReleased as a UK single in 1985

And I never thought I'd feel this way

And as far as I'm concerned

I'm glad I got the chance to say

That I do believe I love you

And if I should ever go away

Well then close your eyes and try

To feel the way we do today

And then if you can remember

Keep smiling, keep shining

Knowing you can always count on me, for sure

That's what friends are for

For good times and bad times

I'll be on your side forever more

That's what friends are for

Well you came in loving me

And now there's so much more I see

And so by the way I thank you

Oh and then for the times when we're apart

Well then close your eyes and know

The words are coming from my heart

And then if you can remember

nauubusan na ko ng magagawa dito sa bahay... maaga pa lang kasi, natatapos ko na yung mga trabaho ko. pagdating ng 10 am, nood tv/internet/tulog/basa na lang ako hanggang gabi na yon. mahilig pa naman akong magreklamo pag bored ako. may inemail sa akin si ge na nakita niyang print ng isang t-shirt don sa florida:

"Enjoy Boredom
That is All You Have"

tama nga naman. hahaha! pero okay lang, sinasamantala ko na ang 9 days na natitira sa bakasyon. nope, hindi yun typo. talagang 9 days na lang balik ciudad na ulit ako. may 30-june 3 ay nasa maynila na ako dahil sa sandamakmak na orientations sa med. bago na kasi ang curriculum ng UP College of Medicine... OSI o Organ Systems Integration na. wala pa ako masyadong alam tungkol don. kaya nga aatend ng mga orientation eh. i'll blog about that pag talagang naintindihan ko na.

medyo busy na nga ako ng week na yun. halos araw-araw may gagawin. kaya mas praktikal na sa dorm na lang ako kaysa ihatid-sundo araw-araw.

here's my sked: (excited din kasi ako eh kasi may gagawin na. kaya share ko lang hehehe)

may 30 - Phi (isang frat/soro) OSI orientation

may 31 - Mu (isang frat/soro din) OSI orientation. Registration din namin

June 1 - wala! kaya lang coding ang sasakyan namin kinabukasan eh, ayaw akong pag-komyutin. maglilinis-linis na lang ako sa dorm, or do some* (see * later kung bakit some lang hehe) shopping

June 2 - UPCM College Orientation and Student Organizations' Orientation

June 3 - OSI orientation (official OSI orientation ng college) with the parents and Class 2009 (upper classmen and buddies namin) OSI orientation

June3-4 - HS batch outing wahooooo! pagkagaling ng maynila, hahabol pa ko sa batch swimming party namin. syempre, pipilitin kong makapunta don, bihira ko na nga lang sila makita.

June 7 - start of classes. haaaaay.

binigyan na rin kami ng gen scheme of activities (re:subjects) for the whole year. at dahil excited ulit ako (na natatakot) ipopost ko ulit yung mga magiging subjects namin! hehehe.

First Semester:

Art of Medicine

Human Health and Wellness

Human Cell biology

Integration and Control

Skin, Muscles and Bones (ooooh yes, we'll be dealing with the cadavers)

Head and Neck

Thorax

Research Methods (Intro to Basic Research)

COME (Community-oriented Medical Education) activities

Second Semester:

Integration and Control

Abdomen and Pelvis

Human Ontogeny and Parturition

Human Physical and Psychosocial Development

Human Health and Wellness

Research Methods 1 (Laboratory Research)

Art of Medicine

COME activities

whew. andami na nila, binabasa ko pa lang. ano pa kaya pag pinag-aralan na at sabay sabay pa? i'm sure pagdating ng pasukan, puro reklamo na naman ang laman ng blog na to. that is, kung may time pa akong mag-blog. siguro naman, maisisingit pa yon...

may listahan na rin kami ng mga recommended books na gagamitin. isa lang masasabi ko: * (oo, eto na yung * sa taas) ANG MAHAL! 7 (or 8, depende kung ilang libro for biochem ang bibilhin ko) books ang kailangan ko. when i saw the total price... chenen!! around fourteen thousand-friggin-pesos! wala pa don yung mga instruments na kailangan ko (dissecting kit, stethoscope, sphygmomanometer, etc etc) at ang aking puting uniform.

ang mahal talaga mag-aral ng medisina. swerte, nasa UP ako. thank you lord.

yun lang muna. medyo mahaba yata yun ah. :D nood muna akong tv ulit.

life oh life.

fuh-reaaaky day

this entry was supposedly posted yesterday... but i friendster-ed like hell so i didn't get the chance to post this. and oh, this is also a part of my email to ge, with some minor modifications and exclusions. ;)

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syet. this has been a freaky day.

#1. i got a text message. sumkinda like this:

i love you! i love you! i love you! (basta andaming i love you's) mwa. mwa. mwa. mwa. mwa (andami ding mwa's).

of course i got freaked out by that. hindi kasi galing sa iyo eh. alam mo kung kanino galing?

kay *toot* (censored, but the ruralites would be able to relate).

teacher ko nung HS. i'm not sure if naikwento ko na sya sa iyo... if not...

mejo close kami non. actually nung una, ok sa akin kasi nakakatawa sya, pala jowk. tsaka sa class hindi sya yung terror na teacher tapos magaling pang magturo. pero after a while, nailang na ako sa kanya. para bang lagi na lang nagpapapansin, lagi akong gustong kausapin. he'd treat me to lunch, etc. tapos he'll hold my hand but i dismissed it kasi mabilis lang naman, parang he just pulled me aside to talk about something. yeah, lagi ako nung chichikahin about anything, pati tungkol sa kanilang mag-asawa.

may mga students din na "na-link" sa kanya, actually. ayun, pinag-uusapan na sila sa skul, ng teachers, batchmates, etc. pero yung samin naman hindi umabot sa point na pinaguusapan kami kasi nga nung nailang na ko sa kanya, mejo lumayo na ako.

nung bday ko nga nung 4th yr, he gave me a painting. artsy-fartsy kasi yun eh.

nakita ko sya nung pumunta kong lb last week, sa may kfc (nagstay din kasi kami don eh). may mga kasama syang co-teachers but he went to our table anyways and said hi. kasama ko non sina jenni, lorena and jafet pero parang ako lang ang pinansin nya! pero di rin sya nagtagal kasi nga may mga kasama syang iba. basta. ilang na ilang ako non.

tapos ayun nga, tinext nya ko ng ganon! what did i do? wala. after a while, he texted again na it's for his wife. tapos text ulit na pakibura na lang, sorry. hindi ako nagrereply kasi ayoko ng makipag-usap sa kanya. tumatawag din sya sa kin, 2 different nos. yung isa, naka-save sa phone ko yung isa hindi, but i know it's him. pucha, 31 calls yun! pinatay ko na lang yung fone ko. ohmy buti na lang wala ako sa lb. haay.

i don't know, i'll just let it pass. maybe i'm just overreacting.

#2. may yahoogroups na tayo! (regarding up college of medicine class 2010) kaya lang nagkakagulo pa ngayon. dalawa kasi eh. isang upmed2010 at upcm_class_mmx. yung upmed2010 si mere moderator at yung isa, si dipstick_07 (lateral). ryt now, kausap ni jm thru ym para maayos na.

bakit freaky? kasi when i joined the group, nakita ko yung mga email add ng mga laterals. tapos ayun, para bang ngayon ko lang talaga na-feel na eto na talaga, may kasama na tayong iba, kelangan nang maging mature, etc. haaaay. nakakatakot na naakaexcite.

naisip ko pa, kelangan ko ng palitan yung friends' list ko sa ym ng class 2010 (imed kasi nakalagay ngayon eh). grabe, panibagong chapter na naman ng buhay natin...

*toooooooooooooooooooot* censored na yung iba for our privacy, hehehehe.
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gusto ko pang mag-blog tungkol sa paparating na pasukan... pero sa ibang entry na lang yun, hehehe.

snippets:
-i've been watching meteor garden re-runs! dati, hindi ako nanonood non. i wasn't the type kasi to watch telenovelas, basta hindi ako mahilig sa showbiz. but now na walang masyadong magawa, showbiz na showbiz na ko! hahahaha. i've been transformed into a schoolgirl, kilig na kilig kina san cai at dao! bwahahahahaha!

-acting nanay ako for a whole week. my mom went to bohol to attend my great grandfather's funeral. he's 100 years old!

-my brother insists that my mom buy him a tarsier. hahaha, serioso syang nagpapabili!

10 things i hate about you

bato-bato sa langit, ang tamaan, wag magagalit! opinyon ko lang ang mga ito.

PEOPLE I HATE:
1. LIARS. i don't usually lie. so i expect the people around me to NOT lie to me. are we clear on that? good.

2. PRANK TEXTERS. especially those who send "missent messages", and then after a while would bug you for your asl. before you know it, he's courting you already. thru text. can this guy please get a life?

3. PEOPLE WHO TYPE LIKE THIS.
anOooother bOrrin dAe fO mE.. hMmm iM hUrR in lAgUna aGAin.. wAs sUppOse tA enrOll fOE mah suMmer cLass bUt gOt huRr pUrDy lAte sO iMa dO iT tOmOrrow.. dAng,, iM aLL alOne huRr n mAh dOrm.. crEepie! Awww,, aNd i miSs mAh gUrLfweNDs thOu i Wuz juS wit thEm tS aFtanOon.. hMmm wtf iM suPpose tA wRitE hUurrRr?! iOno M juS bOred.. lOlz! aNd i miSs dA pEoplE in caLi ANd mAh "eX".. aWww,, thAts hElla fUcked uP! bUt M oVer hiM.. i thinK.. AnywEissSs,, wAs jUs tAlkin tO rOlan onLine.. hEes sUch a swEet gUy.. i lOve talkin tAH hiM.. cUz HE kEeps it rEaL aNd i Like tHAt.. wUt eLSe? oH weRE pLannin tAh kiCk it at LiBiS.. wUs pLAnnin TAh sHow hiM hOw dOwn tHEm bitChes tHEre aRe.. lOlz! mOre lAPdAnce aND griNDin... wUtz bEttA thAn tHAt?! aNd sEein Em hOt lADiEs dO tHEir thinGy iSh jUs tHe sHit.. HAhhaha! OMG,, bEin bi ish fUn.. bUt oF coUrse i stiLL dIg eM gUys mOre.. =P wUt eLSe?! mOnDAy's tHE stArt oF cLasSes.. bOOrin>>>>... sOOo tHAts t.. aint gOt nything mOre tA sAy.. lAtaZzz...

i just can't understand why they make typing hard for themselves. and it sounds so friggin jologs sa totoo lang ha. if you want to get a good laugh and an instant nigga fix, just Y!M me (shiminytimbers) for the url of the blog where i got that *points upward*. yes people, she blogs!

4. FLOODERS. sa friendster lalo. ang lakas magpapansin.

RANDOM STUFF:
5. taba ng isda. it just tastes so oily and fishy and puke worthy and jelly-o ugh ugh ugh.

6. dirty bathrooms. i wouldn't take a bath in a dirty bathroom. nung nasa baguio kami, the bathroom was dirty and i didn't take a bath for two days. konting hugas hugas/hilamos lang. good thing it was cold up there. ;)

7. stupidity. my own stupidity. admitting a (minor) mistake is hard for me. but not if i'm blatantly wrong.

8. hip-hop. they're all about sex. i find them uncreative and monotonous.

9. a burst bubble. i get too excited over things and when they go against me, i have a mild bout of depression.

10. flying ipis. a crawling ipis may look harmless. but when it flies... my screams can reach 10,000 decibels.

snippets:
- ang tagal kong pinag-isipan 'to. donald trump speaks like owen wilson. you're fired!

- i was actually sorry for anthony when i saw him go. he looks so... hopeful. next outie: i think it's gonna be vonzell. sa kanilang tatlo, mukhang sya ang may pinakamaunting suporters eh. sayang, i really like her pa naman. next ai: bo. they just can't stop screamin for him!

- if you're a conspiracy aficionado, try clive cussler's novels. same genre as sidney sheldon, dan brown, michael crichton. some stories are far-fetched but nothing beats a good conspiracy theory especially when boredom hits. the plot is enough to keep the pages turning.

- i can't sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeep. gotta try now. out!

yummy food fix

If there's such a thing as "legacy" being passed on from one family to the next, ours would be food. As i grew up, my mornings were spent waking up with my senses in full alert as the rich aroma of food being cooked and the distinguishable clatter of utensils greeted me. The smell of ginisa perforated the air so much that i can almost taste it in my tongue. There's warm and delicious food at the table every time, that's why weight is always such an obstacle for me. :p

There's this Filipino adage that goes, "Ang masarap magluto ay masarap din kumain". True enough, my family are voracious eaters! i didn't realize how much we're eating until the time we had a small family of five (not our relatives) visit us in our house. In true pinoy hospitality, my mom prepared a sumptuous lunch for our guests. What she prepared was the amount of food that our family of four would normally consume. After they ate, my mom asked me to help her clear the table and I almost laughed out loud when i saw their many left-overs. Then it hit me: Baka talagang malakas lang kami kumain. This observation was validated the next day as i watched my brother wolf down three pieces of chicken while the boy (our guest), almost the same age as he was, ate only one. When my brother got the chance, he whispered to me, "Tinga ko lang yon." Hahahahahaha.

Being the food lovers that we are, we are also food crtics. The greatest disappointment every time we go out is when the food is not excellent, or when it is priced too much when in fact my mom could have whipped up the same entree with less gastos. mas masarap pa. ;)

I love food so much that it's a must that my boyfriend should be an eater too. Buti na lang si ge (and his family too) is such a hearty eater! :D Even my brother's girlfriend's family are eaters too.

Guess being THIN is such a far-fetched dream huh? :)

Now that i'm dieting (read: no rice, but chocolates cannot possibly be taken out in my system!), all i can think about are my favorite food. Weeks of deprivation can make me matakaw once again when school starts. In effect, all those dieting always come to waste. If only the happiness that comes with being able to wear everything you want isn't so satisfying, i wouldn't deprive myself of the one (many, actually) thing (with an S, to be gramatically correct) i like:

HOME FAVORITES: beef caldereta, pocherong tagalog, chicken sopas, beef with broccoli

SALAD: Caesar WITH RANCH DRESSING (the dressing is a must!) - Chef d'Angelo

PASTA: Spaghetti with rich meat sauce - Chef d'Angelo, Chicken Mushroom Linguine and Spaghetti with Italian round sausage - Delifrance

PIZZA: Chicken Bechamel - Carlo's Pizza

MAIN ENTREES: Lengua - Dulcinea or Mario's Kitchen, Salsa Verde (it's fish fillet with white creamy sauce) and Chicken wrap (chicken with carrot stick and cheese inside, parang chicken roulade) - The Pit

ICE CREAM: anything strawberry, Caramelo con Pastillas - Fruits in Ice Cream (gerald introduced me to this) and black cherry gelato - Pagliacci (Kathy introduced me to this. i 100% agree with her, it's orgasmic!)

CAKES, AND THE LIKE: lemon-chiffon-boiled icing cake - baked by yours truly :), Chocolate cake1 - Figaro (again, frome ge), chocolate cake2 - mer-nel's (the best chocolate cake in los banos!), strawberry shortcake - gloria jean's, waffles (any flavor) - starbucks, strawberry silvanas - house of silvanas

BREADS: chouquette - delifrance, anything from BREAD TALK (they have the yummiest! my mom bought like 15 different flavors kanina)

CHOCOLATES: white mostly: toblerone, alpine white (sadly, they're out of the market already), snickers, m&m's (ge gave me these the day na sinagot ko sya. uuuuuy!), kisses, twix, cadbury dream, cadbury fruit and nut, maltesers

ETC ETC ETC: halo-halo - chowking and Razon's, bbq - jo's bbq (the best, promise! @ market!market!), ilocos chichacorn, palm corned beef, feel good soups from knorr, mashed potato - popeye's, popcorn with drizzeled butter - tater's at ATC, shawarma, seneca caramel apple chips, authentic singaporean chilli crab

MUST TRY RESTAURANTS/FASTFOOD: Jollibee, Carlo's Pizza, Josephine (Tagaytay, buffet), Dad's/Kamayan/Saisaki (for the ULTIMATE sulit buffet), Pho-Bac, Go nuts Donuts, Delifrance, Bread Talk, Little Asia, Superbowl, Pancit ng taga-Malabon, many other more actually. hahaha.

the list is making me hungry. stop maan stop. before you forget that you're not supposed to eat dinner anymore.

P.S i envy those people who eat and eat and not gain an ounce of fat

P.P.S totally unrelated. i bought my second pair of havaianas today. thanks mommy!

jumping on the (acoustic) bandwagon

what genre does freestyle belong to anyways? they're back! and they sound very very much acoustic with their song once in a lifetime. Top sounds more like a roguish but sweet rockstar than the croony balladeer that he was. their songs are really nice but the lyrics and tune are so catchy that almost everyone ends up liking their songs and then un-liking them after a while because everyone likes them already. am i making sense here? i've got once in a lifetime stuck in my head after hearing it played over and over again by my brother. on the radio and on the guitar. i have yet to decide if i like it though. hehehe. here are the lyrics:

ONCE IN A LIFETIME

Music and Lyrics: Top Suzara

When thinkin' bout you baby

And I don't know what to do,

All I think about is you

Seems everythin' around me,

Things are never understood,

The only sense when I'm with you

Oh I've heard it all before

Finding so called love,

Then you leave it behind,

But now I feel so sure,

I listen to my heart this time,

So I lay it on the line..

Chorus

I know that what I've found is once in a lifetime

And I know there's no way out,

Cause it's once in a lifetime.

I've always been so lonely,

No one ever needed a home,

There were nights was just so cold

Oh don't get me wrong

I've been around,

And I resign myself to thinkin',

Just another start often told,

Oh I've heard it all before

Finding so called love,

Then you leave it behind,

But now I feel so sure,

I listen to my heart this time

With my heart before my mind

I know that what I've found is once in a lifetime

And I know there's no way out,

Cause it's once In a lifetime

It's not like I’m running out of time

Takin’ everything is right

Just another thought I've found

Who’ll make me change my mind

I know that what I've found is once in a lifetime..yeah

And I know there's no way out,

Cause it's once in a lifetime.

i miss songs tht have so much meaning in them. nowadays, most of them are just about getting some, if you know what i mean. that's why i'm now more inclined to listen to artists i wouldn't dare mention here because you probably wouldn't recognize them. but your PARENTS would. :p i'm manang NA like that. hehehe. getting old(er) is definitely catching up on me. :)

AI

The show that got me hooked every Wednesday and Thursday afternoons... Here's my lowdown on the five idols left. Anwar! You are sorely missed.

Anthony - The second most that I hate. Before I didn't like him at ALL. But after hearing that he's the same age as me, I dunno, something about that similarity called out to me. Today's performance sucked. BIG TIME. Even Paula who always says the nicest things have said otherwise. Buti na lang he got his glasses back on the first song, he's cuter with them you know. Or maybe I'm just attracted to intellectuals. Sorry sa mga fans ni Anthony.

Scott - I hate hate hate him. Hindi gumana ang "average joe" effax nya sa akin. Ang angas kasi eh! Di pa magaling kumanta. He should have been voted out episodes ago. I mean Anwar and Constantine's way better than him, right? I'm in deep mourning over Anwar's loss. :(

Vonzell - My IT girl. She's my favorite. Among the five left, her vocals are the best. In my unprofessional (biased! Hahaha) ears, she has not hit a sablay note yet. But there's something lacking in today's performance. Ohmygod I hope she doesn't get voted out! Go go go vonzell! I'll go ballsiticsimus if she gets voted out before Scott. I super hate him obvious ba. Oops, sorry din to his fans, if he's got any. :p

Bo - Yo Bo!! You rock!! If not Vonzell, it's him. He's not competing, he's actually just there to enjoy. He has the coolest jeans and I love the hippie look he's got goin on. Mas gwapo nga lang si Constantine. But truly, Bo rocks!

Carrie - There's just something about her that I don't like. Maybe her voice sounds too country-ish and I'm not a greatest fan of that genre (except when it's Jewel. See I'm biased talaga.) And what was she thinking when she gets her hair all curled up and teased at the same time?! Nope, it's not Barbie meets the Stepford Wives. Heck, Nicole Kidman wouldn't look even an inch like THAT if her hair's all curled up! *shudder* Carrie looks like she just hopped out of the electric chair. She resembles Reese Witherspoon though.

So who gets voted out next? Please please please please let it be Scott! But Anthony is truly in danger after getting not so goo reviews. Shiyet, get Scott voted ouuuuttt!

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huling pamamaalam

Yakiii! As if ang tagal naman naming hindi magkikita ni Gerald! Hahaha. Siguro ngayon ay nasa Singapore na sila habang inaantay ang connecting flight nila papuntang US. Naalala ko tuloy ang Singapore days ko … Noong bochog at manang pa ako. Bwahahaha!

Anyway. Bago ko pa maiba ang usapan.

Noong Thursday pumunta kaming ATC kasama sina Ants, Tara, Kathy at Abe. Muntik nang hindi matuloy ang plano naming panonood ng Can This be Love (korni na kung korni!). Paano naman kasi, coding ang mga sasakyan namin pati kina Ge at Kathy. Buti na lang at available yung van ni Ants! (Thanks Ants!) Sinundo nila ako dito sa Sta. Rosa at inihatid na rin nung gabi. May aksidente pang nangyari sa akin nung papunta na kami sa ATC. Habang hinahanap ko yung suklay ko sa aking kikay kit, bigla na lang akong napaaray dahil may masakit na tumusok sa aking thumb. Pagtingin ko ditto, dumudugo na ng malakas at may malalim na hiwa! Ansakit! Buti na lang at hindi ako takot sa dugo at siguradong mahihimatay na sana ako sa dami ng dugong lumabas sa daliri ko. Ayun pala ay napalagay yung blade na nakapatong sa dresser ko sa loob ng aking kikay kit. Mga aksidente nga naman.

Hindi ako nagandahan sa Can This be Love. Korni na kung korni pero korni talaga. Konting eksena lang ang nakakatawa’t nakakakilig. Mas maganda ba ang Bcuz of U. :p Suckers kami ni Gerald sa mga cheesy/mushy movies. We’re korni like that.

Kinabukasan (Friday) ay ang scheduled “adventure” naming ni Ge sa Munting Buhangin Beach Camp sa Nasugbu, Batangas. 10:30 am na siya nakarating ditto sa Sta. Rosa dahil dumaan pa siya sa CM (College of Medicine) para kuhanin ang gaming mga grades o TCG. Kaya lang, na-implement na rin pala ang 4-day work week sa CM. Sayang. MAKIKITA KO NA SANA ANG UNO KO SA ZOO 30. Yeah right.

Bakit adventure? Ang haba kasi ng biyahe. Road trip ngang tunay. Buti na lang at maganda na ang kalsada at hindi masyadong traffic papunta doon. Kaya naman around 2 o’clock ay narating na naming ang gaming destinasyon. May stop-over pa yun sa 7-11, Paseo de Sta. Rosa at Tagaytay ha! Magpipiktyur piktyur sana kami sa Tagaytay eh kaya lang foggy yung lake. Hindi rin kita ang bulkan. Nang-aakit ang Starbucks dahil sobrang init kaya lang wala kaming pera eh, hehehe. P2000 lang ang pera namin at ang P700 ay napunta pa sa gas!

Pagdating doon, naghiga-higa lang muna kami sa banig at sobraaang init para magtampisaw sa beach. Nangitim na nga sa CDO, baka maging tutong na kami.

Pagkatapos tumubog sa tubig nang ilang minuto, naghanap kami ng mga mini dikya a.k.a diklets (hahaha!) sa may batuhan. Sabi kasi ng kapatid ko, marami daw doon, pati sea cucumber. Ngunit wala naman kaming nakita kundi isang maliit na crab. Crablet pala. LOL.

At dahil ako’y sadyang accident-prone nowadays (napadpad ng anod sa CDO, nahiwa ng blade), nadapa pa ako sa madudulas na bato!

ayan. diyan ako nadapa!

6 o’clock na nang umalis kami ng Munting Buhangin. :)

Pauwi, ay dumaan ulit kami ng Tagaytay para mag dinner sa Carlo’s Pizza. Kumain kami ng Abruzzi (flavor ng pizza, puro meat ang laman), Canelonni (pasta na mukha namang crepe talaga) at masarap na chicken fingers with large cut fries. Sarap talagang kumain. Burp.

Inihatid na ako ni Ge sa bahay at nagpalipas muna sya ng traffic doon. Friday madness kasi eh. 11:30 na nang kami’y namaalam sa isa’t isa. At pinaalala ko na ang mga hinihingi kong pasalubong sa kanya. Jowk lang. :)

Pag kasama mo ang mga taong mahal mo, kahit wala kayong gingawa, enjoy pa rin di ba? I 100% agree.

P.S Bakit kapag tagalog napaka-drama talagang pakinggan?

tatty teddy

Hey ya'll readers of Maan's blog. This is Gerald by the way, Maan's ever so lovable boyfriend-slash-slave. Hehehe, kidding.

I've just put up this new layout, as requested by her. I hope you enjoy this tatty teddy blog theme. She really likes 'em like hell...asss innnn....*she even wants a Tatty Teddy themed wedding!*

Yeah, tatty teddy. :)

Tatty teddies (aka Me-to-You bears) have become an integral part of our relationship ya know. These bears bind us together. Bwahaha, corny.

Even before we got together, Maan gave me this friendship keychain from Humor Post which had two Tatty Teddies holding hands with the text "Friends" on the shirt of one, and "Forever" on the shirt of the other. Hehehe. Nice eh? She gave it to me on our fieldtrip to Subic. (It was very evident that she was the one into me at that time...tssss) hehehe.

Well, time passed by, we became "us," and soon the Friends Forever became too inappropriate for us. So I gave her, on a fieldtrip to Banahaw, another friendship keychain, of the same Tatty Teddies, but now with the text "I-heart-You" and "You-heart-Me" on their shirts.

That's more like it.

And that has been my keychain for my dorm keys for months now. :D

Wala lang. Just wanted to share. :p

Cge, enjoy!

the cdo experience +++

since my neurons are incapable of synapses right now probably due to my utter lack of mental exercise, i can't conjure cohesive paragraphs. when was i able to do that anyway? ;)

the cdo trip was grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrreeeeeeeaaatttt!! 12 reasons why!

1. the mere thought of being in mindanao was exhilirating! sabi nga nung nakasama namin sa rafting, most people think it is too dangerous to go to mindanao because of all the terrorism incidents. what can we do? we are just thrill seekers i guess!

at the cdo tarmac

2. the food was delish. i swear, i don't eat rice until the time i left manila. guess what? i eat rice now for breakfast, lunch and dinner. after eating chicken inato, barbecue, lots of seafood (think:cholesterol) in cdo, sobrang laging hinahanap ng tyan ko ang pagkain. tomorrow i go semi-southbeach na talaga. promise.

3. day 2 in cdo was one helluva of an experience! for the extreme sports fanatics out there, try nyo talaga mag white water rafting. grabe saya every time we ride the rapids and come out of it unhurt. iisipin mo na talaga minsan kakainin ka na ng tubig eh. andami pang side trips along the way. most unforgettable experience: our guide and "expert paddler" took out a snake from a hole on the wall. okay lang sana eh. pero sheeet, inilapit nya sa amin! si gerald was sooo soo red already (he has snake phobia) and abe was going like "mommy!" hahaha! i swear if i wasn't so scared also nakakatawa because the guys were scared shitless. serves us right. tinakot nya kasi kami because we almost capsized when we hit a wall (of rock). snakes are not my friends. onga pala i have another memorable experience: there are times kasi na they allow you to just make paanod sa ripples (small rapids) kasi may suot naman na life jacket. so there, nagpatangay lang kami but i was going too too fast and i got carried away na talaga na mejo malayo. ang lalim talaga ng water i can't feel the bottom. like a crocodile swims there already! imagine being alone in deep cold water with the unknown beneath you. so they had to rescue me! yeah, ang drama i know i love it! sayang hindi na videohan. hahaha. some pics we took:

at the river bank

in action!

tapos na... balik tayo ulit!

4. we went to the beach on day 3. ganda! clear yung water and the sea grass pwede makita. we went canoeing and kayaking. ang layo ng naabot namin that the motor banca has to come tell us pa na "go back! you're way too far!" parang ganon. naki-usi pa kami sa mga nagssnorkel. ang kyut! we saw dory! a blue fish anyway. and a huge purple starfish that looks so kagat-able parang teether ng baby. hehehe.

5. sunburn doesn't hurt so much as long as you enjoyed being under the sun! i was so reddish i was really almost kakulay na nung litson na handa ni gill.

6. i had great company! with me were gerald, my brother tinton, abe, gideon, and our host gillian. imed friends are family! :)

7. we went to 3 malls: sm cdo, limketkai mall and gaisano mall. im such a mall person talaga.

8. got to ride a motorela! a jeepney-slash-tricycle-pero-apat-ang-gulong in one!

9. dahil sa cdo trip na yan i was able to buy those coveted havaianas!!!

havaianas hibisco. 835 friggin bucks!

and a new shirt and tan capris too!

10. 3 "bodies of water" ang napaliguan ko: swimming pool, river, dagat! hahahahaha.

11. from way up up high in the sky i saw how beautiful the shores of our country really are. absolutely breathtaking! iba't ibang shades ng blue/bluish green and they sparkle and shimmer.

12. and this completely made my day:

need i say more?

then it was time to go home...

THE CDO EXPERIENCE:APRIL 19-22, 2005 :)


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today i went to my best friend's handaan sa balian, pangil, laguna. it was the town fiesta. sarap talaga ng libreng food! i saw there some high school classmates. here are some pics i took along the way:

chubby chubibo kid. wala lang, nakyutan ako sa kanya, nakasabay ko lang sa jeep.

hangin? yun pala para sa gulong. hahahaha. yung context naman kasi nung sign. laugh trip todo!

one classmate/good friend has a baby na and he's so kyut!!! baby's galore. i have a new baby cousin nga din pala and he's ultra cute also! cute cute babies!! so squeezable!!

my new baby cousin, luis miguel de castro. he's soooo fat, 8.4 lbs! and maybe he'll get even fatter his mom's a pedia.

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ratzinger? he's too old... and his face is not as maamo as john paul II. plus he's ultra conservative. john paul II was conservative but was open to new ideas. i don't like someone radical though. being semi-conservative is good because you have some sort of an anchor which serves as a reality check. mahirap ang walang pinanghahawakan, you have a lot of tendency to go out of hand... maybe ratzinger's a transition pope lang talaga. i think i read on a broadsheet that ratzinger himself said that his papacy wouldn't last long. pero grabe yung legacy that john paul II left. ang taas tuloy ng expectations na kailangang i-meet ni ratzinger. oh well. the catholics have more issues to think of than just one man.

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i bake sinful brownies. haaay. i don't like to eat anymore. but they're really chocolate-y delicious!

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my phone can't receive text messages. bakit kaya. FYI: gideon told me that different signals are used for sending and receiving text messages. maybe there's a probelm with my receiving signal i dunno.

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my favoritest pair of shoes from janylin.

that's it! and as georgia nicholson (character from a chick lit titled confessions of georgia nicholson) says, TTFN people!

*TTFN - ta ta for now

tsaka na lang ang mga kwento...

pagbalik ko sa friday!! weee!! punta kming cagayan de oro. kasama ko yung kapatid ko, si ge, abe, and gideon. kila gil kami titira! :D

bukas na ang alis namin. till then!

PS. may havaianas na rin ako foinally. :)